How do you find strength when your life seems to seriously unfair? When you feel like only bad things happen to you. When you feel like you have no one on your team. When the people around you don’t understand? Well let me begin with a little story…
Thats how long it’s been since I was sexually assaulted. Anniversary’s are hard. I always thought that when the seven year anniversary came around that I would “be over it”. But the truth is, I will never be over it. And it never gets easier. But I do get stronger.
Sometimes, I think about where I would be if that wouldn’t have happened. And my mind goes totally blank. It’s amazing how one event can change your entire life. How it can change your entire perspective on how life goes and how many different directions you take because of it. I have struggled to understand what happened to me, and I have struggled to find peace. It all came in stages. There was the denial, the guilt, the anger, the guilt, the confusion, the sadness, the guilt, the grievance, the epiphany, the forgiveness and now the strength. And when I say strength, I don’t mean that I am over it and completely fighting through it. But it does mean that I have found the strength to fight a little harder than I did yesterday in keeping it together.
What has helped me the most recently?
Creating the support I need– I have began creating a community of people who lift each other up. One thing I have struggled with being away from my Live Different family, is having the support I need. So I created a business called Lift and Love where we can come together as a group to support each other in whatever it is we need.
Physical health– When you are sexually assaulted, sometimes it feels like you have no control over your emotions (even 7 years after the fact). And that is okay. But one thing I have been holding onto, is what I can control. And I am lucky enough to be able to control my physical health. I have the power to exercise, and eat healthy and take care of my body. So when I feel I can’t control anything else, I take control of my physical health.
Personal Development– Have you ever heard of the “self-help” section at the bookstore? Well that is where I shop! There is a negative connotation to self help books, but I think you should be helping yourself daily! Books, podcasts, meditation, gratitude journals and anything else that makes you grow daily should be a part of your routine!
I find some bit of strength in every single day.
If you are struggling with anything, I want you to know that I am here. That you are not alone in your struggle. There is hope and there is strength out there for you. You are worthy of love and support.
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Love will win